Rain....

Sitting in the car at night, watching the raindrops on the windshield, waiting...listening....thinking...

The mess they leave behind...

My daughter has done a lot of crying the past few days since the suicide of a fellow classmate and friend since kindergarten. The day after it happened, New Year's Day, she came into the living room where I was and sat down in the rocker holding her cell phone and just said, "I don't know what to do with her number". I knew what she was saying, but asked her what she meant anyway. She said "I have Courtney's number in my cell phone, I don't know what to do with it."-- and the tears started rolling down her cheeks again. I told her not to do anything with it and that she should leave it there for as long as she felt like having it there and someday it would feel OK to delete it.

The funeral is not until next Thursday, 5 more days. The kids have been off school for Christmas break all this time so they will start back to school Monday and have several days of classes before having that closure of the funeral. Fortunately, they will have grief counsellors at the school all week when the kids come back on Monday.

What a horrible way to start off the new year. I can't help but think that if a person who was considering suicide could see how it affects the people they leave behind, that would be the most effective deterrent to following through with it.

Teen Suicide Letter - RED - pieces

Two days ago, on New Year's Eve, a young 16 year old friend of my daughter's killed herself leaving behind so many heartbroken friends and family.The last time my daughter saw her, they were joking around at school, normal everyday stuff. Nothing seemed wrong at all. We often take for granted that our children are fine, when maybe they aren't.

Martina McBride - Anyway (LIVE 2006)

N0 New Year's Resolutions...Just Inspirations.